Though I am paying for it today, this weekend was probably the best weekend I have had in over a year!
Not to mention, it has rained every weekend for weeks here in Pinellas County, Florida, but 😇 God must have been shining down on us this weekend 🌞 the Grand Prix boat races came into Gulfport, Florida for the 2nd year. And it was a free event! Probably the best part about it was it was on the beach 🏖 Y’all it really doesn’t get much better than digging your toes in the sand and watching some cool ass boats racing by!
We were blessed with a beautiful Breeze and though the first day we didn’t plan as well as we should have
the 2nd day we were ready!
Cooler full of water ✅ bag full of snacks ✅ chairs for our butts ✅ umbrella ✅
I hope you enjoyed a little snippet of my great spoonie weekend!
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Thanks for taking the time out of your day to stop by and give my blog a read!
I am going through a whirl wind of emotions. With surgery about 4 days away my mind is all over the place. Humour has always been my place of refuge; sort of like Chandler on the epic series Friends, comedy, humour, they are my armour.
Walking through my local dollar store I found this little gem 😁 oh the smile this brought me is priceless! I’ve warned my family to watch out, now I’ve got a service bell.
When I started this blog my aim was to try to stay focused, but, my mind pulls in so many different directions! I think I’ve decided that that’s exactly what this blog will be. It will simply, be. I will allow my mind to pull me in whatever direction it wants to go in, and write about whatever passionately takes hold in my mind, in that moment!
No more analyzing. No more. I‘vewastedsomuchtimeinmylife over analyzing, overthinking. Somuchhashappened so recently, so much change, insuchashort.
The original intent has been completely lost and this has become my place,this blog is for me, and if somehow it helps someone, anyone else, icing on the cake!
I’ve been contemplating life for the past couple of years. I feel like I’ve grown a great awareness and a very deep connection with my God. He talks to me and he guides me and my intuition has never been stronger!
I’ve learned that I have to getoutofmyown way if I ever want to accomplish anything! I have never felt more free, more content, more fulfilled in my life, and I’m weeks away from brain surgery.. it is crazy the way things seem to just fall into place, the obviousness of divine intervention, the peace that I feel most days, even whilst in the most excruciating pain I have ever experienced, has cemented that old adage that everythinginlifehappensforareason. Every heart ache, mistake, missed oppurtunity, all bring me to right here, right now, who I am in this moment.
After nearly a life time of feeling like not enough and too much at the same time, I can honestly, joyfully say,
“This is me. And I am in love with her!”
I have learned to say no to people, people that I love and care about, andforapeoplepleaserwhichIhavebeenmywholelife, that is extremely hard to do! I stand up for myself now, the way I always stood up for others. I have learned to love people where they’re at, but, I now know that, that does not mean I have to allow them to treat me badly.
I don’t waste my energy on the petty things that I used to think were so important.
I choose to get up each day and believe that there willbe good in that day, no matter how I feel and no matter what is happening.
I have allowed God to work in me and make me the person He created me to be!
Getting out of my own way has been the best thing I could have ever done for myself! And it has prepared me for what is coming soon. Every trial, every ache every pain, every hardship, has made me who I am and has gotten me ready for what is to come.
I know there are quite a lot of pictures in this post but you see, I’m very visual. I love the brightness in the color of life and if I can bring a smile to at least one of your faces, then my job is done for the day.
I want to share what Joy I have and give people hope, that no matter what you are going through, you don’t have to be miserable, you don’t have to be ashamed, you don’t have to feel guilty. There is always someone who cares, even if you don’t know them, even when you feel like there is no one. Icare, even when I don’t know you, or don’t like you, or really don’t want to *laughs* it is exhausting, but, I always care. I was made that way, and each day I will embrace it more and more.
In all the pain I am in today, I feel like I have finally fully decided to be completely and totally, unashamedly, undeniably, me.
Be the most authentic version of yourself! Life is to short for anything less!
So you’re upset with your significant other, how do you handle it? What is your go-to? Are you closed mouthed and moody? Do you stomp around the house agitated until someone asks you what is wrong? Or are you straight forward, tackling the problem looking for a solution? Are you willing and able?
Do you love the person you are with enough to put yourself out there to find out what is really bothering them? Would you allow yourself to be hurt to learn that you may be the legitimate cause of the problem? I am finding, the older I get, when my husband and I are having disagreements I approached it head-on. I don’t like passive aggressive behavior? It is a waste of time. I used to behave that way. Dreadful. Thankfully, by the grace of God, as I’ve aged I’ve learned that kind of behavior only exasperates the situation, it never helps it. Lying, and saying you’re fine when you’re not will not resolve anything. And holding onto anger only poisons your soul. So why not get over yourself? Talk about it. Put yourself out there and find out what the problem is then together look for a solution, a compromise, because if you really love someone it’s worth the time!
If you really love someone you will take the time to rid yourself of poisonous and negative behaviors that may be destroying your relationship, and if that person really loves you they will do the same.
Always by my side. A little blessing in disguise. Who’d have known a year ago how dear you’d be to me. My tiny fury friend. You are an awesome companion indeed! We almost didn’t bring you home that day..but my heart tugged back to your cage. I’m so thankful I followed my heart that day!
Animals love us in a way that people simply cannot. Iamnotfaultingpeople, weareallflawed. I am saying, the love of an animal is pure, no motives, except possibly an extra treat, they simply adore us!
I must admit I have never loved an animal the way I love my cat! He always knows when I need him! It may sound crazy to you, but I simply do not care, I believe the good Lord placed Smokey in my life for a purpose. There’s a reason my heart would not let me leave that shelter without him. He makes me smile 😃 he loves on me when I cry 😢 and he rarely leaves my side.
If you suffer from a chronic illness/chronic pain, I highly recommend, from experience, that you find yourself a pet! One that fills your heart and brings you Joy!
We made it out to one of our favorite places today, Sawgrass Lake. This is something we were supposed to be doing all summer, but, unfortunately I can rarely find the energy for outings like this unless my husband is along for the ride. I was determined today! And thankfully mother nature abliged and kept the rain at bay.
We had lofty hopes the heat wouldn’t be to terrible.. Who were we kidding?? It is the end of June in Florida after all. We were just lucky to have a breeze that was not carrying a storm straight for us!
We decide after an hour that it’s best we start heading back to the air conditioning. We saw two baby gators, a handful of turtles, a few birds I’d like to call ducks but they don’t quite fit the bill, and one rather large racoon who is clearly not having any trouble finding food.
I plan to have as many good days as possible before surgery becomes an even larger reality. With an uncertain future looming in the distance, I am at least able to rest assured on some very lovely truths;
I am deeply loved
I will not ever be alone, no matter how alone I may feel
And, His Grace is sufficient for me
I find the truth in that, for even as I write I can hear the sky coming to life.
I like to believe the good Lord knew how badly I needed into nature today, and it was He that kept the rain at bay so that I could refill my cup today.