My Mid-Morning Breakthrough

When I started this blog  my aim was to try to stay focused,  but, my mind pulls in so many different directions! I think I’ve decided that that’s exactly what this blog will be. It will simply, be. I will allow my mind to pull me in whatever direction it wants to go in, and write about whatever passionately takes hold in my mind, in that moment! 

No more analyzing. No more. Ive wasted so much time in my life over analyzing, overthinking. So much has happened so recently, so much change, in such a short

The original intent has been completely lost and this has become my place, this blog is for me, and if somehow it helps someone, anyone else, icing on the cake! 

I’ve been contemplating life for the past couple of years. I feel like I’ve grown a great awareness and a very deep connection with my God. He talks to me and he guides me and my intuition has never been stronger! 

I’ve learned that I have to get out of my own way if I ever want to accomplish anything! I have never felt more free, more content, more fulfilled in my life, and I’m weeks away from brain surgery.. it is crazy the way things seem to just fall into place, the obviousness of divine intervention, the peace that I feel most days, even whilst in the most excruciating pain I have ever experienced, has cemented that old adage that everything in life happens for a reason. Every heart ache, mistake, missed oppurtunity, all bring me to right here, right now, who I am in this moment.

After nearly a life time of feeling like not enough and too much at the same time, I can honestly, joyfully say, 

“This is me. And I am in love with her!”

I have learned to say no to people, people that I love and care about, and for a people pleaser which I have been my whole life, that is extremely hard to do! I stand up for myself now, the way I always stood up for others. I have learned to love people where they’re at, but, I now know that, that does not mean I have to allow them to treat me badly. 

I don’t waste my energy on the petty things that I used to think were so important. 

I am uniquely and wonderfully made, and so are you!

I choose to get up each day and believe that there will be good in that day, no matter how I feel and no matter what is happening. 

 I have allowed God to work in me and make me the person He created me to be! 

Getting out of my own way has been the best thing I could have ever done for myself! And it has prepared me for what is coming soon. Every trial, every ache  every pain, every hardship, has made me who I am and has gotten me ready for what is to come. 

I know there are quite a lot of pictures in this post but you see, I’m very visual. I love the brightness in the color of life and if I can bring a smile to at least one of your faces, then my job is done for the day. 

I want to share what Joy I have and give people hope, that no matter what you are going through, you don’t have to be miserable, you don’t have to be ashamed, you don’t have to feel guilty. There is always someone who cares, even if you don’t know them, even when you feel like there is no one. I care, even when I don’t know you, or don’t like you, or really don’t want to *laughs* it is exhausting, but, I always care. I was made that way, and each day I will embrace it more and more.

In all the pain I am in today, I feel like I have finally fully decided to be completely and totally, unashamedly, undeniably, me.

Be the most authentic version of yourself! Life is to short for anything less!

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Against the Wall Devo by Our Daily Bread 💙☝

Against The Wall 

On April 25, 1915, soldiers of the Australian and New Zealand Army Corps landed on the Gallipoli peninsula expecting a quick victory. But fierce resistance by the Turkish defenders resulted in an 8-month stalemate during which thousands on both sides were wounded or killed.

Many of the ANZAC troops who were evacuated to Egypt visited the YMCA camp outside Cairo where chaplain Oswald Chambers offered hospitality and hope to these men so broken and disillusioned by war. With great insight and compassion, Chambers told them, “No man is the same after an agony; he is either better or worse, and the agony of a man’s experience is nearly always the first thing that opens his mind to understand the need of redemption worked out by Jesus Christ. At the back of the wall of the world stands God with His arms outstretched, and every man driven there is driven into the arms of God. The cross of Jesus is the supreme evidence of the love of God.”

Paul asked: “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?” (ROMANS 8:35). His confident answer was that nothing can remove us from God’s love in Christ (8:38-39). When we’re up against the wall, God is there with open arms. —David McCasland

God’s love still stands when all else has fallen.

Meet Mr. Kitty 

Always by my side. A little blessing in disguise. Who’d have known a year ago how dear you’d be to me. My tiny fury friend. You are an awesome companion indeed! We almost didn’t bring you home that day..but my heart tugged back to your cage. I’m so thankful I followed my heart that day! 

My favorite fury friend 😻

Animals love us in a way that people simply cannot. I am not faulting people, we are all flawed. I am saying, the love of an animal is pure, no motives, except possibly an extra treat, they simply adore us! 

Soft kitty, warm kitty, little ball of fur, happy kitty 🐱 sleepy kitty, purr purr purr 😸

I must admit I have never loved an animal the way I love my cat! He always knows when I need him! It may sound crazy to you, but I simply do not care, I believe the good Lord placed Smokey in my life for a purpose. There’s a reason my heart would not let me leave that shelter without him. He makes me smile 😃 he loves on me when I cry 😢 and he rarely leaves my side. 

My cat is awesome!

If you suffer from a chronic illness/chronic pain, I highly recommend, from experience, that you find yourself a pet! One that fills your heart and brings you Joy! 

We don’t have to suffer alone💜

The Lord is My Fortress


Who will protect me from the wicked? Who will stand up for me against evildoers? Unless the Lord had helped me, I would soon have settled in the silence of the grave. I cried out, “I am slipping!” but your unfailing love, O Lord , supported me. When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. Can unjust leaders claim that God is on their side— leaders whose decrees permit injustice? They gang up against the righteous and condemn the innocent to death. But the Lord is my fortress; my God is the mighty rock where I hide. God will turn the sins of evil people back on them. He will destroy them for their sins. The Lord our God will destroy them.
Psalms 94:16‭-‬23 NLT

http://bible.com/116/psa.94.16-23.NLT

When I feel my body failing I turn to the Lord, who is my everlasting strength and comfort.

Nature Helps to Fill My Cup

Enjoying the beauty of nature with one of my favorite guys

We made it out to one of our favorite places today, Sawgrass Lake. This is something we were supposed to be doing all summer, but, unfortunately I can rarely find the energy for outings like this unless my husband is along for the ride. I was determined today! And thankfully mother nature abliged and kept the rain at bay.

Serenity at it’s best!

We had lofty hopes the heat wouldn’t be to terrible.. Who were we kidding?? It is the end of June in Florida after all. We were just lucky to have a breeze that was not carrying a storm straight for us!

He is no longer amused, and I don’t blame him.

We decide after an hour that it’s best we start heading back to the air conditioning. We saw two baby gators, a handful of turtles, a few birds I’d like to call ducks but they don’t quite fit the bill, and one rather large racoon who is clearly not having any trouble finding food.  

Small black “duck” in the distance
I plan to have as many good days as possible before surgery becomes an even larger reality. With an uncertain future looming in the distance, I am at least able to rest assured on some very lovely truths; 

  1. I am deeply loved
  2. I will not ever be alone, no matter how alone I may feel
  3. And, His Grace is sufficient for me

I find the truth in that, for even as I write I can hear the sky coming to life. 

The sky is coming to life, and we are safe inside.

I like to believe the good Lord knew how badly I needed into nature today, and it was He that kept the rain at bay so that I could refill my cup today.

Finding Favor

Who finds favor with God? According to Isaiah, it is the people who “are humble and contrite in spirit, and who tremble at my word” (Isaiah 66:2). This doesn’t mean that favor is something that can be earned by performing righteous deeds. Rather, it means that favor comes to those whose hearts are right in the sight God. After all, it was Isaiah who also said that “all our righteous deeds are like a polluted garment” (Isaiah 64:6). If favor with God depended on perfect obedience to God’s will and ways, then none of us would have very much favor with Him at all, would we.

A person whose heart is right before God is a person who desires to walk in steadfast love. “Steadfast love,” in our verse today, speaks on our relationship to God and to other people. Deuteronomy 6:5 says that “You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might” and Leviticus 19:18 says “you shall love your neighbor as yourself.” When our hearts are right before God our desire will be to love Him and His people. We may not always love as we should, but it will be the desire of our hearts. The person who has a heart for love receives God’s favor – and the favor of people as well.

Further, the person whose heart is right before God will be a person who desires to walk in faithfulness. “Faithfulness” also refers to our relationship to God and to other people. The faithful person stands firm when others give up. They do not quit on God or other people! When our hearts are right before God our desire will be to stay faithful to Him and His people. We may not always be as faithful as we should, but as long as it is the desire of our hearts, the Lord will be pleased. The person who has a heart for faithfulness receives God’s favor – and the favor of people as well. 
Let steadfast love and faithfulness rule the course of your life. People will look upon you with favor – and so will God.

Afternoon Jam 🎸 Break Watch “Sweet Indian Child of Mine | Baiju Dharmajan | Girish Pradhan” on YouTube

     Good afternoon! I hope it is a good afternoon for you all! 

     I came across this little gem on my morning facebook scroll. I’ve always loved the song Sweet Child of Mine, it makes me think of my daughter and her stunning blue eyes. 

     So when I came across this I was impressed. It took me on a happy stroll down memory lane as I thought about how it made me think of my son now as well. His eyes are not blue like his sisters. They are a deep, soulful brown, but none the less, he is my sweet child.

     I appreciate people who are unconventional. Outside the box. I think we should be so ‘US’, so ourselves, that it is undeniable! Anyway. I hope you enjoy!

https://youtu.be/Sweet Child O’ Mine Cover

     And enjoy the rest of your day!🎶

Sweet Child O’ Mine

Guns N’ Roses

Lyrics

She’s got a smile it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I’d stare too long
I’d probably break down and cry

Oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o’ mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet love of mine

She’s got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I’d hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o’ mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet love of mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o’ mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet love of mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Sweet child o’ mine
Oh,
Sweet love of mine…

Today’s Epiphany

Last night I was discussing the idea with my husband that things just sort of seem to snowball after you hit 30. It really seems like every other day at least, there’s another problem; another obstacle in the way of our ultimate goals in life.

Life can leave you wondering what next?

Now since last night it has occurred to me the reason things seem snowball. Obviously this is only my opinion but I believe it has Merit. As we get older our circle becomes larger and the number of people we care for grows. We have children, we may have grandchildren. And we care about our parents in a different way. By becoming more aware the older we get we find we are affected more greatly by things, the while being children, went widely unnoticed. Life was simpler.

As adults we have more things to care about, and more things to concern ourselves with. We have more things that we are personally responsible for.

I believe this is what creates the illusion that things are spinning out of control, because as adults we have so many things that were trying to be in control of. The burden is greater. The weight of it all, heavier. The consequences larger. And there is definitely more at stake.

Like a movie director we want everything to go the way we’ve planned it. The actors in our movie must say the right lines at the right times, and be ever in their places.

It is in this constant controlling that we lose our joy. How do we let go? How do we let go of this control that steals our joy? Well. Not very easily I can tell you that. And probably never completely, but if we practice we can stop projecting our expections on every one and everything in our lives. I really believe you can always find joy in suffering. You may have to look extremely hard, but it is there.

Back to my point.

As we grow older we become more aware of our surroundings. Learning and growing forming deeper relationships with other people and this leads us to Care more deeply for others. So we are more greatly affected by the things that happened to the people around us. Their pain essentially is our pain. I don’t know about you, but, when I find out my children, or my husband, or my mother, or one of my siblings is having a bad day or bad season in their life it affects me.

Maybe that is why, the older we get, the more it seems like its always something. 

Just a thought.

Afternoon Jam Break 🎸Watch “Queen – We Are The Champions’

Queen sang and iconic song ‘We Are The Champions’  and for no reason whatsoever, other than I need to believe that I am a champion, this song is stuck in my head.

😂

Feeling this song right now!

I tend to get goofy when I’m in a lot of pain.  And I  do whatever I can to distract myself in a positive manner 😃

I do well most days.

Every once in awhile I’ll have a day where distractions just do not work. Thankfully today is not one of those days! 

I hope you all enjoy this oldie but goodie!

We are the champions my friends!

https://youtu.be/Queen ‘We are the Champions’