Though I am paying for it today, this weekend was probably the best weekend I have had in over a year!
Not to mention, it has rained every weekend for weeks here in Pinellas County, Florida, but 😇 God must have been shining down on us this weekend 🌞 the Grand Prix boat races came into Gulfport, Florida for the 2nd year. And it was a free event! Probably the best part about it was it was on the beach 🏖 Y’all it really doesn’t get much better than digging your toes in the sand and watching some cool ass boats racing by!
We were blessed with a beautiful Breeze and though the first day we didn’t plan as well as we should have
the 2nd day we were ready!
Cooler full of water ✅ bag full of snacks ✅ chairs for our butts ✅ umbrella ✅
I hope you enjoyed a little snippet of my great spoonie weekend!
And if you’d like to see more videos and pictures of the Grand Prix boat races, or if my #chiarilife please head on over to my IG and give me a follow 😘 I look forward to seeing you there! Now, back to the couch😴😴😴
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Thanks for taking the time out of your day to stop by and give my blog a read!
When I started this blog my aim was to try to stay focused, but, my mind pulls in so many different directions! I think I’ve decided that that’s exactly what this blog will be. It will simply, be. I will allow my mind to pull me in whatever direction it wants to go in, and write about whatever passionately takes hold in my mind, in that moment!
No more analyzing. No more. I‘vewastedsomuchtimeinmylife over analyzing, overthinking. Somuchhashappened so recently, so much change, insuchashort.
The original intent has been completely lost and this has become my place,this blog is for me, and if somehow it helps someone, anyone else, icing on the cake!
I’ve been contemplating life for the past couple of years. I feel like I’ve grown a great awareness and a very deep connection with my God. He talks to me and he guides me and my intuition has never been stronger!
I’ve learned that I have to getoutofmyown way if I ever want to accomplish anything! I have never felt more free, more content, more fulfilled in my life, and I’m weeks away from brain surgery.. it is crazy the way things seem to just fall into place, the obviousness of divine intervention, the peace that I feel most days, even whilst in the most excruciating pain I have ever experienced, has cemented that old adage that everythinginlifehappensforareason. Every heart ache, mistake, missed oppurtunity, all bring me to right here, right now, who I am in this moment.
After nearly a life time of feeling like not enough and too much at the same time, I can honestly, joyfully say,
“This is me. And I am in love with her!”
I have learned to say no to people, people that I love and care about, andforapeoplepleaserwhichIhavebeenmywholelife, that is extremely hard to do! I stand up for myself now, the way I always stood up for others. I have learned to love people where they’re at, but, I now know that, that does not mean I have to allow them to treat me badly.
I don’t waste my energy on the petty things that I used to think were so important.
I choose to get up each day and believe that there willbe good in that day, no matter how I feel and no matter what is happening.
I have allowed God to work in me and make me the person He created me to be!
Getting out of my own way has been the best thing I could have ever done for myself! And it has prepared me for what is coming soon. Every trial, every ache every pain, every hardship, has made me who I am and has gotten me ready for what is to come.
I know there are quite a lot of pictures in this post but you see, I’m very visual. I love the brightness in the color of life and if I can bring a smile to at least one of your faces, then my job is done for the day.
I want to share what Joy I have and give people hope, that no matter what you are going through, you don’t have to be miserable, you don’t have to be ashamed, you don’t have to feel guilty. There is always someone who cares, even if you don’t know them, even when you feel like there is no one. Icare, even when I don’t know you, or don’t like you, or really don’t want to *laughs* it is exhausting, but, I always care. I was made that way, and each day I will embrace it more and more.
In all the pain I am in today, I feel like I have finally fully decided to be completely and totally, unashamedly, undeniably, me.
Be the most authentic version of yourself! Life is to short for anything less!
Always by my side. A little blessing in disguise. Who’d have known a year ago how dear you’d be to me. My tiny fury friend. You are an awesome companion indeed! We almost didn’t bring you home that day..but my heart tugged back to your cage. I’m so thankful I followed my heart that day!
Animals love us in a way that people simply cannot. Iamnotfaultingpeople, weareallflawed. I am saying, the love of an animal is pure, no motives, except possibly an extra treat, they simply adore us!
I must admit I have never loved an animal the way I love my cat! He always knows when I need him! It may sound crazy to you, but I simply do not care, I believe the good Lord placed Smokey in my life for a purpose. There’s a reason my heart would not let me leave that shelter without him. He makes me smile 😃 he loves on me when I cry 😢 and he rarely leaves my side.
If you suffer from a chronic illness/chronic pain, I highly recommend, from experience, that you find yourself a pet! One that fills your heart and brings you Joy!
Who will protect me from the wicked? Who will stand up for me against evildoers? Unless the Lord had helped me, I would soon have settled in the silence of the grave. I cried out, “I am slipping!” but your unfailing love, O Lord , supported me. When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. Can unjust leaders claim that God is on their side— leaders whose decrees permit injustice? They gang up against the righteous and condemn the innocent to death. But the Lord is my fortress; my God is the mighty rock where I hide. God will turn the sins of evil people back on them. He will destroy them for their sins. The Lord our God will destroy them.
Psalms 94:16-23 NLT
We made it out to one of our favorite places today, Sawgrass Lake. This is something we were supposed to be doing all summer, but, unfortunately I can rarely find the energy for outings like this unless my husband is along for the ride. I was determined today! And thankfully mother nature abliged and kept the rain at bay.
We had lofty hopes the heat wouldn’t be to terrible.. Who were we kidding?? It is the end of June in Florida after all. We were just lucky to have a breeze that was not carrying a storm straight for us!
We decide after an hour that it’s best we start heading back to the air conditioning. We saw two baby gators, a handful of turtles, a few birds I’d like to call ducks but they don’t quite fit the bill, and one rather large racoon who is clearly not having any trouble finding food.
I plan to have as many good days as possible before surgery becomes an even larger reality. With an uncertain future looming in the distance, I am at least able to rest assured on some very lovely truths;
I am deeply loved
I will not ever be alone, no matter how alone I may feel
And, His Grace is sufficient for me
I find the truth in that, for even as I write I can hear the sky coming to life.
I like to believe the good Lord knew how badly I needed into nature today, and it was He that kept the rain at bay so that I could refill my cup today.
Who finds favor with God? According to Isaiah, the people who “are humble and contrite in spirit, and tremble at my word” (Isaiah 66:2). Favor is not something that can be earned by our performance. Rather, favor comes to those whose hearts are right in God’s sight. After all, Isaiah also said that “all our righteous deeds are like dirty clothes” (Isaiah 64:6). If favor with God depended on our perfect obedience to God’s will, then none of us would have very much favor with Him at all, would we?
A person whose heart is right before God is a person who desires to walk in His unfailing, unending, steadfast love. “Steadfast love,” in the verse today, eludes to our relationship to God and to others. Deuteronomy 6:5 says that “You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might” and Leviticus 19:18 says “you shall love your neighbor as yourself.”
When we choose to get our hearts right, before God our desire will be to love Him and His people. We may not always love as we should, but it will be the desire of our hearts. The person who has a heart for love receives God’s favor – and also the favor of people.
A person whose heart is right before God will be a person who desires to walk in His faithfulness. “Faithfulness” can also refer to our relationship to God and to other people. The faithful person stands firm when others give up. They DO NOT quit on God or people (Thus includes ourselves)! When our hearts are right before God our desire will be to stay faithful to Him and His people. We may not always be as faithful as we desire to be, but as long as it is the desire of our hearts, the Lord will be pleased.
Let steadfast love and faithfulness rule the course of your life. People will look upon you with favor – and so will God.
Good afternoon! I hope it is a good afternoon for you all!
I came across this little gem on my morning facebook scroll. I’ve always loved the song Sweet Child of Mine, it makes me think of my daughter and her stunning blue eyes.
So when I came across this I was impressed. It took me on a happy stroll down memory lane as I thought about how it made me think of my son now as well. His eyes are not blue like his sisters. They are a deep, soulful brown, but none the less, he is my sweet child.
I appreciate people who are unconventional. Outside the box. I think we should be so ‘US’, so ourselves, that it is undeniable! Anyway. I hope you enjoy!
She’s got a smile it seems to me Reminds me of childhood memories Where everything Was as fresh as the bright blue sky Now and then when I see her face She takes me away to that special place And if I’d stare too long I’d probably break down and cry
Oh, oh, oh Sweet child o’ mine Oh, oh, oh, oh Sweet love of mine
She’s got eyes of the bluest skies As if they thought of rain I hate to look into those eyes And see an ounce of pain Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place Where as a child I’d hide And pray for the thunder And the rain To quietly pass me by
Oh, oh, oh Sweet child o’ mine Oh, oh, oh, oh Sweet love of mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh Sweet child o’ mine Oh, oh, oh, oh Sweet love of mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh Sweet child o’ mine Oh, Sweet love of mine…
Last night I was discussing the idea with my husband that things just sort of seem to snowball after you hit 30. It really seems like every other day atleast, there’s another problem; another obstacle in the way of our ultimate goals in life.
Life can leave you wondering whatnext?
Now since last night it has occurred to me the reason things seem snowball. Obviously this is only my opinion but I believe it has Merit. As we get older our circle becomes larger and the number of people we care for grows. We have children, we may have grandchildren. And we care about our parents in a different way. By becoming more aware the older we get we find we are affected more greatly by things, the while being children, went widely unnoticed. Lifewassimpler.
As adults we have more things to care about, and more things to concern ourselves with. We have more things that we are personally responsible for.
I believe this is what creates the illusion that things are spinning out of control, because as adults we have so many things that were trying to be in control of. The burden is greater. The weight of it all, heavier. The consequences larger. And there is definitely more at stake.
Like a movie director we want everything to go the way we’ve planned it. The actors in our movie must say the right lines at the right times, and be ever in their places.
It is in this constant controlling that we lose our joy. How do we letgo? How do we letgo of this control that steals our joy? Well. Not very easily I can tell you that. And probably never completely, but if we practice we can stop projecting our expections on every one and everything in our lives. I really believe you can always find joy in suffering. You may have to look extremely hard, but it is there.
Back to my point.
As we grow older we become more aware of our surroundings. Learning and growing forming deeper relationships with other people and this leads us to Care more deeply for others. So we are more greatly affected by the things that happened to the people around us. Their pain essentially is our pain. I don’t know about you, but, when I find out my children, or my husband, or my mother, or one of my siblings is having a bad day or bad season in their life it affects me.
Maybe that is why, the older we get, the more it seems like it‘salwayssomething.