Willing and Able? Having Healthy Conflicts in Love

So you’re upset with your significant other, how do you handle it? What is your go-to? Are you closed mouthed and moody? Do you stomp around the house agitated until someone asks you what is wrong? Or are you straight forward, tackling the problem looking for a solution? Are you willing and able?

Do you love the person you are with enough to put yourself out there to find out what is really bothering them? Would you allow yourself to be hurt to learn that you may be the legitimate cause of the problem? I am finding, the older I get, when my husband and I are having disagreements I approached it head-on. I don’t like passive aggressive behavior? It is a waste of time. I used to behave that way. Dreadful. Thankfully, by the grace of God, as I’ve aged I’ve learned that kind of behavior only exasperates the situation, it never helps it. Lying, and saying you’re fine when you’re not will not resolve anything. And holding onto anger only poisons your soul. So why not get over yourself? Talk about it. Put yourself out there and find out what the problem is then together look for a solution, a compromise, because if you really love someone it’s worth the time! 

If you really love someone you will take the time to rid yourself of poisonous and negative behaviors that may be destroying your relationship, and if that person really loves you they will do the same.

Pretending

I wish I was pretending about the pain that I am in. I wish I didn’t feel as tho I’m trapped in my own skin. I wish I really was being ridiculous in jest. But I promise you this pain I’m in is really quite the pest. It tries to steal my joy and fill me up with doubts. I drain a lot of energy keeping the pain from seeping out. I can not run away from this. I live it every day…I’m going to have brain surgery. There is just no other way. Chiari malformation. 1-1,000 are the odds..this makes me strangely special, but please, hold your applause.

Crawls Beneath my Skin

This mask I wear…it’s falling off. Reality setting in. The fear…the anxiety…it crawls beneath my skin. 

I slap this smile on to convince ME I’m okay… I’ve got friends “by my side” but it sure doesn’t feel that way… Their fault? Or mine? Should I keep saying I’m fine?… To many decisions to make..

Holding it all under this mask for fear that I will break.

I’m surprised with me, my anxiety, would usually be in out of control..

Strangely I feel a sort of peace in my soul..

I wear this mask to hide my fear..but who am I hiding it from?

I like to tell myself I’m hiding it from my husband, mother, daughter, son..

I’m finding revelation and its hard for me to see…because quite possibly the person I’m wearing this mask for…is really me..

Against the Wall Devo by Our Daily Bread 💙☝

Against The Wall 

On April 25, 1915, soldiers of the Australian and New Zealand Army Corps landed on the Gallipoli peninsula expecting a quick victory. But fierce resistance by the Turkish defenders resulted in an 8-month stalemate during which thousands on both sides were wounded or killed.

Many of the ANZAC troops who were evacuated to Egypt visited the YMCA camp outside Cairo where chaplain Oswald Chambers offered hospitality and hope to these men so broken and disillusioned by war. With great insight and compassion, Chambers told them, “No man is the same after an agony; he is either better or worse, and the agony of a man’s experience is nearly always the first thing that opens his mind to understand the need of redemption worked out by Jesus Christ. At the back of the wall of the world stands God with His arms outstretched, and every man driven there is driven into the arms of God. The cross of Jesus is the supreme evidence of the love of God.”

Paul asked: “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?” (ROMANS 8:35). His confident answer was that nothing can remove us from God’s love in Christ (8:38-39). When we’re up against the wall, God is there with open arms. —David McCasland

God’s love still stands when all else has fallen.

Devotion by Our Daily Bread

Witness From A Wheelchair 

A woman named Nancy put this ad in her local newspaper: “If you are lonely or have a problem, call me. I am in a wheelchair and seldom get out. We can share our problems with each other. Just call. I’d love to talk.” The response to that ad was surprising—30 calls or more every week.

What motivated this woman to reach out from her wheelchair to help others in need? Nancy explained that before her paralysis she had been perfectly healthy but in deep despair. She had tried to commit suicide by jumping from her apartment window, but her fall left her paralyzed from the waist down.
In the hospital, utterly frustrated, she sensed that Jesus said, “Nancy, you’ve had a healthy body but a crippled soul. From now on you will have a crippled body but a healthy soul.” As a result of that experience, she surrendered her life to Christ. When she was finally allowed to go home, she prayed for a way to share God’s grace with others, and the idea of the newspaper ad occurred to her.
Every believer can do something to help others. Limited as we may be by sickness, old age, or disability, we can still pray, call, or write. No matter what our condition, we can be effective witnesses for Jesus. —Vernon Grounds

Little things become great things when they are done to please God.

Everyday

Headache Everyday

Difficult to sleep
There’s to much pain

The back of my head

It screams in agony

My mind cries:

“Why is this happening to me?”

1 in a 1,000

Those are my odds

Any chance of ending this pain

Comes at a surgical cost

Im not lost..

As crazy as that sounds

Since all of this began

Really, I’m more found!

You couldnt pick me out of a crowd..

I look just like you do

At least most days I do

Normal” as they say, yet

Inside my body

Things are not ok

But the time has come

To pop on my smile

I’ve already been sentenced

No jury

No trial

Another day has been gifted to me

I will smile thru this pain

No misery!

Chiari was in the cards for me

Make the best of your hand

The cards you were dealt

The hand is for you to play

No one else..

Meet Mr. Kitty 

Always by my side. A little blessing in disguise. Who’d have known a year ago how dear you’d be to me. My tiny fury friend. You are an awesome companion indeed! We almost didn’t bring you home that day..but my heart tugged back to your cage. I’m so thankful I followed my heart that day! 

My favorite fury friend 😻

Animals love us in a way that people simply cannot. I am not faulting people, we are all flawed. I am saying, the love of an animal is pure, no motives, except possibly an extra treat, they simply adore us! 

Soft kitty, warm kitty, little ball of fur, happy kitty 🐱 sleepy kitty, purr purr purr 😸

I must admit I have never loved an animal the way I love my cat! He always knows when I need him! It may sound crazy to you, but I simply do not care, I believe the good Lord placed Smokey in my life for a purpose. There’s a reason my heart would not let me leave that shelter without him. He makes me smile 😃 he loves on me when I cry 😢 and he rarely leaves my side. 

My cat is awesome!

If you suffer from a chronic illness/chronic pain, I highly recommend, from experience, that you find yourself a pet! One that fills your heart and brings you Joy! 

We don’t have to suffer alone💜

New Life

For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.
2 Corinthians 5:14‭-‬15 ESV

http://bible.com/59/2co.5.14-15.ESV

He died for you. It is your choice to live for Him!

Love your Enemies

“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.
Matthew 5:43‭-‬45 ESV

http://bible.com/59/mat.5.43-45.ESV

Seriously. Pray for your enemies. It is incredibly freeing!

Burning Pain

Overwhelmed in pain

Will life ever be the same?

Questions rolling through my head

As I lay here in my bed

Uncomfortably

I toss and turn

No comfortable position

My body burns

So much pressure in my head

I’ve really got to get to bed

Fear creeps in

I push it out

Will this be my tomorrow?

I have no doubt…